In the middle of night..

I'm worried. I'm freaking out. I'm scared. I'm panicked. But I'm still continuing. I don't know whether I'm doing the right thing now but I'm already in the middle of the sea, there's no turning back, the only way out is to swim to the other end. I must accomplish my mission. I can't back out. The only thing I can do is that I hope I'll gain back what I'd lost which were not meant to be lost. Aza!