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Staring at this screen for a month, logged in logged out, yet still don't know what to write. Things are getting tougher, life is getting meaningless, it's just the start of 09 and it's gonna be so so so tough, remember my dad once said on the last day of 08 'this is gonna be a tough year', I remained silent and couldn't agree more deep down inside. I hope, I pray, I wish that things don't get so difficult. I'm not that type of person who loves to take difficult stuff as a challenge and look forward to it, I rather live a simple life with no big ups and downs if you were to ask me. Boring you might say, but I'm fine with it, I just do. I used to be more daring, talk more, smile more etc, however things changed. It's so sad to know about how thing goes by, that is why now I choose rather not to know than to know everything, To know everything in exchange to not tell anyone is really difficult, yet I manage to do it. Still, it's a burden, sometimes. A transparent one. It seems like I'm shutting myself, limiting myself into a small circle, without even giving a damn about everything that is happening around me. However, I'm always a silent reader of all your blogs out there. Though I didn't update mine, it doesn't mean I didn't read yours. =) I still read, still know what is going around, just not used to leave a comment in every single post I read. Recently I started to hate sleeping, it's like a waste of time, yes I just said that, a person who love to sleep so damn much just said that sleeping = waste of time. Day by day, passing so fast and in the end of every day, I feel like I just wasted another day, doing nothing beneficial, helplessly. Sigh. That is all for now, enough of my ramble because I'm getting emo thinking about all these stuffs, thank you for reading this and have a nice day. Happy Chinese New Year. the end