KILL Me, Please..

Sometimes I really feel like slapping myself or perhaps just stab myself to dead.

AS Level Trial is just 2 weeks away but I don't feel like studying, which is obviously not a good thing. It's not gonna be just 3 or 4 chapters like in the previous test but around 10+ or more. That sucks because we'll have so damn much to read and memorize. Plus, some chapters are like 20+ pages.

Sometimes I just feel like throwing all the books away. T______T So many cases to know, so many Acts to remember, so many names to memorize, blah blah blah...

And this is just A Level !!!!! I'm always thinking that did I made the wrong decision? Is this what I want? I don't know!!!!!!!! When dream meets reality, why must we give in? T_____T Why can't we do what we wanna do? Why must we do what we're expected to do?

But well human beings are just like that, when you don't have X, you crave for it. When you got your hand on X, you don't favor it anymore like the way when you don't have it. “得不到的永远是最美好的”…… Isn't it?
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I HATE EXAMINATION.
I HATE STUDYING.
I HATE BOOKS.
I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE MORNING CLASSES.
I HATE ASSIGNMENTS.
I HATE MEMORIZING THINGS.

To be exact, I HATE EDUCATION. T_________T



I WANT TO BE AT HOME EVERYDAY.
I WANT EVERYDAY TO BE A HOLIDAY.
world peace.

Random

Whoa.. today's date also very cool wor..

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08.18.08
(mm.dd.yy)

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Been busy watching tv, tv and tv..
Olympic games for sure..
Everyone talking about LCW v LD..
Bah.. Will update soon..

Like almost each and everyone of you..
I also got a ONE-WEEK-HOLIDAY (so called)..
It's not HOLIDAY to be specific.. T_____T

Well I'm very depressed, emo and upset now.
So ciaoz..
Stay tune..
It's the eighth day of the eighth month of the eighth year of the second millennium.

8th of August, 2008

08/08/2008

2008年08月08

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Beijing Olympics

08.08.08

08:08:08

We Are READY!

Despite whatever it is,
tomorrow!!!
Tomorrow!!!!
TOMORROW is the day!!!!!!!

*Beijing Olympic!!!*

Cai Yun-Fu Haifeng
Bao Chun Lai
Peter Gade;
Xie Xing Fang
Zhang Jie Wen
Badminton,
Gymnastic,
Swimming,
Diving,
etc etc......

HERE I COME!!!!!!!





**All the BEST in everything and hope this 29th Beijing Olympic will come true and turn out to be a success. Please no more bombs, no more terrorists, no more rains, no more taufans and ask Mr. Bu-sh not to interfere in China's human right issue for the moment being.

加油!!加油!!

本来……

……可以赖在家里一个星期舒舒服服地看奥运。

……可以有一个星期的 stress-free;jam-free 高速。

……可以早一个星期开始啃书。



——现在,全泡汤了……

——真是欲哭无泪,悲哉,悲哉……

小时了了,大未必佳

很不习惯,也不喜欢那种目光。那种很明显虚伪的目光。

三十多双眼睛交集在自己的身上,那种感觉很不好受。


自认不是一个聪明的人,一直都是靠“勤劳”,才让我得到少许的肯定。

但是,随着岁月的流失,“勤劳”这家伙离我越来越远了。

反之,“懒惰”却很厚脸皮地一直赖着我不放。

命运师傅也说过,本人的考试运是很差很差的。


最记得中二的时候,一位根本没有读书的人,凭着一把枪,也能得到比我高的分数。

到现在我都还耿耿于怀。

同样的射三题,人家往往可能可以中个两/三题的。


而我呢?幸运的话,可能一题吧!否则,就是吃蛋咯…

如今,上了学院念书,要做的全是文章,再也没有“甲乙丙丁”了。

总觉得,这段时间的我很幸运,近乎每个测验和考试,我都得到蛮不错的分数,也成了全班得分最高的人。

这真得让我觉得很惊讶,因为自己从来都不认为会有这么的一天。


明明SPM全A的人,却得到不堪设想的分数。


而我呢?昔日那种差强人意的成绩,今天却得到全班最高分?

别说他们傻眼,我顿时也愣了一下子。

当老师冒出一句:“Samantha did well.”的时候,那个场面真的是非笔墨所能形容呀。


全班的目光都落在我身上,有怀疑、怀恨、难以置信、嫉妒、虚伪等等等等等等的眼神,仿佛有27384291把剑插在我身上。

从此以后,有些看到我的时候,就冷言冷语几句,话中外加比玫瑰刺还要尖锐的刺。

有些呢,则邀我组织 group study,团员任我选。


很明显的,他们只是想要向我挖料罢了。


只可惜熟悉我的人都知道,本人一向以来都那么懒惰,哪来的时间和精神贡献给他们啊?

也许他们会觉得我自私,但其实除了懒惰,我还有任务在身,并不是想怎样就能怎样的。

至我的同班同学:

其实,得到不错的分数,是因为我选择比较容易的题目。没有把握的,就不要选。宁可把时间花在简单、有把握的题目,总好过做一个完全不懂题目在讲什么的问题,就只因为老师先前说会出。

就这么简单,懒惰人的想法。

本人真的不是聪明人,别再以为我是了。

很谢谢那些看得起我的人,但是也许你们看走眼了。


不喜欢那种被全世界的人看得起的感觉,只因为不想让全世界的人跌破眼镜。

也许小时候的我真得很厉害,但是,月会圆,人会变。
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小时了了,大未必佳
就是形容本人最贴切不过了。


UNDER RENOVATION =)

Any comments or feedback
on this new background are welcomed.

Disappointed

从毫不理会他的到来,到现在一直很期望他快点快点来……

无奈,这个惊天动地的消息却突然被我的双眼看见。

原本已经调好的情绪,就这样,全被打翻了。

虽然影响我不是很大,但是那种盼望和心理上的调整……

又有谁能体会呢?

已经告诉好自己,只要再多撑几天,再几天罢了,就能看见彩虹了!

可是,现在,铁一般的事实已经被钉在布告栏上。

我前后在那里徘徊了很久很久,一直不敢相信我所看到的。


彻底跌入了比谷底还底的谷底……

失望失望