KILL Me, Please..

Sometimes I really feel like slapping myself or perhaps just stab myself to dead.

AS Level Trial is just 2 weeks away but I don't feel like studying, which is obviously not a good thing. It's not gonna be just 3 or 4 chapters like in the previous test but around 10+ or more. That sucks because we'll have so damn much to read and memorize. Plus, some chapters are like 20+ pages.

Sometimes I just feel like throwing all the books away. T______T So many cases to know, so many Acts to remember, so many names to memorize, blah blah blah...

And this is just A Level !!!!! I'm always thinking that did I made the wrong decision? Is this what I want? I don't know!!!!!!!! When dream meets reality, why must we give in? T_____T Why can't we do what we wanna do? Why must we do what we're expected to do?

But well human beings are just like that, when you don't have X, you crave for it. When you got your hand on X, you don't favor it anymore like the way when you don't have it. “得不到的永远是最美好的”…… Isn't it?

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I HATE EXAMINATION.
I HATE STUDYING.
I HATE BOOKS.
I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE MORNING CLASSES.
I HATE ASSIGNMENTS.
I HATE MEMORIZING THINGS.

To be exact, I HATE EDUCATION. T_________T

I WANT TO BE AT HOME EVERYDAY.
I WANT EVERYDAY TO BE A HOLIDAY.
world peace.