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Oh..what can be more worse than knowing my man's gonna retire?! T_____T

One thing is as worse as this is that I lost all his pictures and videos and now have to find them all back with much more hard work. Argh..

Seriously, you don't know how small the world is!! (or maybe because I know so many people from different places and backgrounds wtf)

I have such a mixed feeling recently after stalking so many people's blogs wtf. Like how my primary and secondary and even tuition friends can link together!!! That really amazed me. Well part of the reason is that most of them went to the same secondary schools or colleges, which are the few famous ones and hence they meet. But then, I seldom ask either sides. I just know it myself. Guess that is the power of blogosphere!

I miss my primary friends a lot! I'm really sorry to disappoint them all the time because I can't make it to their gatherings. After seeing some pictures with everyone inside, that triggers me a lot. Well, everyone grew up! Into pretties and handsomes!!! And everyone is still so clever / smart / genius... Everyone is doing so well in life.. (except me wtf) aih low self-esteem..

There are always a few regrets in me. I regret for not taking my studies seriously back then when I was in standard 5 and this made a big change in my life. That difference was so big until I'm still feeling regret now, although it was just a year. I still miss my 6G friends, a lot! If only they will hold a gathering compiling of 6G and 6C one day, I die die also must go! Hmph!

I regret that I didn't insist to stay in Connaught, I always wanted to enter SMK TC!! (despite knowing it's famous for gangster wtf) But who cares? I like the environment. I like the people. There is where I was brought up!

It always happen to me that when I just started knowing a group of people well, then that is when I have to leave. Life...life....life.....


My main point is,
it's a small world after all,
it's a small world after all,
it's a small world after all,
and a small small world.

Peoples I know are leaving to everywhere around the world, but not beside me anymore.

Russia, London, Ireland, Australia, Beijing, Japan, Singapore, USA, Canada, Thailand, Shanghai etc..

They all have the chance to leave this land, some might be going unwillingly, some went abroad to further their studies and most of them missed this land. But if given a chance, I would certainly raise both my hands and feet to leave here and go somewhere else. Really. You don't know how much I wish to leave and go.

渐渐孤僻，
渐渐喜欢安静，
渐渐疏远人群，
渐渐，没有了生气。
没有了年轻人该有的青春。*Njui （你每次写的心情，都会让我吓一跳，因为我每次都很有感触，简直就是同感深受。）


越长大越孤单
越长大越不安
也不得不看梦想的翅膀被折断
也突然间明白未来的路不平坦…

First, some stupid virus attacked my desktop the other day and all gone my precious priceless Hiroyuki Tomita pictures and videos which I searched high and low, day and night, sacrificing all my sleep!! And other important stuffs of course. Dammit. *sobs* T______T

Then, in TARA season 2, Marc and Rovilson ended up in third place. That was really awful when watching Rovilson struggled in putting the flags together and seeing them running to the pit stop to know that they're in 3rd. T___T Now in season 3, Henry and Bernie was eliminated and wrapped things up in FIFTH place?! Oh my god, this is too sad to know. T_____T I'm so upset when Dobby told me this and now I don't have the guts to watch it. *gasp* I feel like crying wtf

Later on, my Moral Education presentation totally sucks like nobody business. Well good for others as we served as a deterrence aka white rats wtf. I seriously HATE group work because I'm the one who has to do 90% of the work and others just sleep through the nights comfortly and get their grades. And I'm not saying about merely C,D or E's. Thanks to me, we got A and Bs in Malaysian Studies okay!! This is so unfair! Stop giving me fcuking excuses saying my English is better and craps. I forgive those who at the very least contributed and tried but still screwed (wtf) things up, but not those who just came and yak a few words and do NOTHING!!! Well you know who you are, despite non of them are gonna see this. What were you doing when I was struggling like mad doing the assignment?! Sleeping? Great. I'm so pissed off.

Next, Hamilton won!!!!!! Oh my god (again), why??! No. I'm NOT happy. I want Massa to win!! It was really bad enough in the Singapore night race, argh.. (yeap I watched the whole race! on tv duh..) Though he won the recent Brazil race, but damn, Hamilton still beat Massa by O-N-E point. #$@%!&*#^%&! *yells like a mad cow* o.O


Are these all bad lucks? God knows. wtf

Secara kesimpulan, this had been a really bad week.